I’ve been away from my blog for quite some time. Honestly, I have not had any inspiration nor the motivation to write. I had to take some time for myself and my son for the last several months for some major life changes. It’s because of my close friends, family and inner strength that I was able to survive this incredibly torturous time in my life. I can’t believe how much time has passed, it feels like a blur and in the blink of an eye, almost a year flew by and I’m still here, stronger then ever. It’s true what they say, “What you want is on the other side of fear”. I can honestly say, I’ve never been happier and more at peace with myself and my life. EVERYTHING has changed and it’s been quite a ride. I’m only sharing this with you because so many of us have gone through something similar and I hope that sharing will only help others. Some of us keep ourselves stuck out of fear and some of us find the inner strength to make the leap.
The last few years of my life have been miserable and I was keeping myself stuck because I thought I had to, because I was afraid of the “unknown”. I had finally hit the point where I knew it was time; I had to file for divorce. This person who I married had turned into a monster of epic proportions and had no empathy or remorse for anything that he had done. In fact, one of our therapists had tried to explain what empathy means and he just sat there with a blank stare. Still to this day, he has not taken responsibility for anything that he had done (and continues to do) – he can do no wrong. Fortunately, the divorce is final, but he will remain in our lives forever. My son. He is my sunshine. My Joy. My life. Everything I have done and will continue to do will be for him and of course, myself.
Most importantly, during this crazy time I did what I could to take care of myself mentally and physically. I talk a lot about Primary and Secondary food. Your Primary food is everything in your life, career, relationships, exercise, spirituality, etc., and your secondary food is what you eat. If something is “off” with your primary food, usually something is off with your secondary food. So I had work EXTRA hard on my primary food so that my secondary food wouldn’t go completely out of control. I made sure that I had the support I needed. I had my life coach, a therapist, my chiropractor, my massage therapist, my friends and my family. I started taking Gracie Barra Brazilian Jiu Jitsu because I wanted to learn self defense and still get an incredible workout. I fell in love with it and found a new family at the same time. I’ve met some Inspiring people and am now even stronger mentally and physically. I started dating and it’s been pretty amazing!! I have a completely new life and I truly believe that sometimes we just need to take a step back from our lives and admit we need help.
If you are going through something similar, and you’re keeping yourself stuck, take a step back and take a look inside. Find that inner strength and courage to make the changes to find your happiness. The only one keeping you stuck is, YOU.
With love and gratitude,